June 28, 2011

WWT

First of all - laptop is back up! Yay!!! I am super impressed with Sony Electronic customer service. After we put off calling all last week, SoldierMan calls Saturday and explains the situation. They say they'll send a new cord out ASAP. Holy cow, it arrived this morning! So now I heart Sony. :)

Anyway, to business. This week's C25K update.

Not any better than last week, I'm afraid. For the first time since I started, I had a moment yesterday where I actually thought, I may not be able to do this. I'm not going to finish the program.

See, this week is a new phase in the program. Previous to now, each week had 3 identical session that increased in intensity by week. This week, the sessions start increasing in intensity each day. So yesterday, I was supposed to run 3 five-minute sessions with breaks. Tomorrow is 2 eight-minute sessions with a break. I barely finished yesterday (and I use the term "finished" loosely). I was pretty down, and very, very freaked out about moving forward to the next sessions.

Last night, I'm telling this to SoldierMan and he reminds me that I'm not on a timetable. I'm not trying to get to a 5K in the next 5 weeks. Why don't I go ahead and redo the last session until I can really ace it. Let my endurance build at my body's pace. And I felt a little silly for not thinking of that myself. And I also felt like a huge pressure was lifted off.

So, that's where I am. I'm going to give myself a break and take the pressure off a little bit. Because the last couple of weeks have been miserable, and I don't want to be miserable. Pushed, yes. Challenged, yes. Hating the idea of going to the gym....? Defeats the purpose, to me.

So, that's where I'm at. I'm going to redo the last session once or twice and let my system catch up. I also want to be mindful of the little hole in my heart. So maybe this is my body sending me a message. And I'm trying to listen to it.

4 comments:

  1. Brilliant idea. It should be fun for you, and if that means taking it a little slower than the program...well who cares!? That's a good man you're married to :) Just keep it up, and keep listening to your body.

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  2. Good call. It should be fun (well, sort of.. I mean it feels good when you stop...)
    Are you running outside or on a treadmill? I cannot pace myself for anything when running (ok, shuffling) outside, so I did the whole C25K program on the treadmill where I could slow it down/speed it up depending on my ability that day. There's no minimum speed for running, either, so go s fast or slow as you want. Good luck!

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  3. Good for you. I think you should definitely feel free to take your own pace, by repeating days and going slowly, too. I do encourage you to keep it up, though! My fb comment still stands, too - it took at least 6 weeks of regularly going to the gym before I didn't feel like a total goofball/loser/non-athlete. I still sort of cringe at the idea of running in front of all the faster/more fit/barely sweating folks, but knowing that I can do what I need to do and that I enjoy doing what I'm doing makes a huge difference. Keep it up, JG! You've totally got this!

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  4. Smart hubby you have ;) The most important part is just to not give up. Although its discouraging to feel like your backstepping or not improving at the pace you feel you should be, quitting will get to nowhere. I remember when I could barely make .5mi and now I am up to being able to make it almost 5 miles but it has literally taken me years to get to that point. Its not an overnight change. Keep at it. Best of luck!

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