January 21, 2011

Every Little Thing

I have had a day. One of those days that seemed three times as long as they actually were, even though I got up late and went to bed early.

Frustration at the local pharmacy. Disappointment walking through Hobby Lobby without any mad money. Irritation trying to get my brand new - defective - cell phone replaced. Topping it all off with getting lost for over half an hour due to a GPS that is a quarter mile off.

In case I haven't mentioned it before, I hate driving. And I hate, hate, hate being lost. Like, I have nightmares about being lost. I pester people ad nauseam for the most minute directions to new places. I don't handle being lost well at all. I usually wind up a blubbering, screaming mess.

So a simple trip out of the house took all day. It completely exhausted me, physically, emotionally, mentally exhausted me.

And there are some other things that have gone on recently and been very stressful. And it's been a long...while. And I keep waiting for it all to pass, like it always does.

And right now I'm laying in bed with a really sweet man snoring away (okay, not snoring, just making sleeping noises) who saw my frustration and took me out to dinner tonight, who takes very good care of us so I never have to worry if we'll be able to buy groceries, who is able to turn any situation into something funny, even when I don't want to laugh.

Most of all, who's there.

I take that for granted so often. In the back of my mind I know he's not always going to be here. Of course, you know you can't really think about it very hard. It can paralyze you. Or, it does me.

But I am trying to do better about remembering that, and treasuring all the little things, like watching him fall asleep with his glasses on, so I can recall them when I can't see them right in front of me one day.

At the end of the day - even a stinky one like this - I'm really very lucky.

Okay, that was definitely a snore. :)
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14 comments:

  1. Ha I just noticed your blog title about being a sooner in Texas. It is quite funny because I am a Texan in Oklahoma (well technically I am a Texan in Maine because I am living with my in-laws for my husband’s deployment). My husband got stationed in Oklahoma back in April after being in Fort Hood for about five years. I am sorry you had a bad day.

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  2. Nope, you definitely can't think about him not being there. =) I get the same paralyzing feeling... Even though we've been separated for the better part of the last 2 years.

    I'm glad your day got mostly better. A dinner date with the hubby is always a nice thing...especially after a "day." =)

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  3. Wow! Way to turn a stinky day into an absolute blessing! It takes a lot to look all that frustration in the eye and then think about all the things you are thankful for and blessed with! :) Very uplifting and encouraging! Enjoy your husband's snores tonight! Haha!

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  4. What a good turnaround!

    I share your hatred for driving and in turn being lost. One time, I was trying to drive from Augusta to Raleigh after visiting my fiance. I was in what I consider the middle of nowhereeee when my GPS STOPPPED working. I couldn't get it to do anything. I had to call my fiance and Dad who didn't answer. Finally my brother answered and directed me home to NC (from Massachusetts). So it's completely okay to hate driving and GPS. They are both awful.

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  5. Oh man. A big ol' sigh of "I feel you sister" coming your way. I hate thinking about him being gone...which is the blatent reality. Training and in the field every week until deployment in July. Blah. But that's the reality and we've just got to make the best of it. Thanks for the reminder.

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  6. Treasure every moment you have with him, because all too soon he will be gone. Then all you will have left is numbness and longing. Hope your next day is a better one, and no more getting lost. I had dumb GPSs mine gets all confused around here.

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  7. I HATE to drive as well! I do not really mind getting lost though (unless I am in a hurry). I get lost ALL the time so I have just gotten used to it;) I am glad your day ended better than it began!

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  8. For you to have such a horrible day, I give major kudos to you in being able to see some good through it all! It's hard to do that sometimes. I know it is for me, anyway.

    At the end of the day, that's all that matters. Coming home to the one you love and being able to count your blessings! Here's to a better day tomorrow!

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  9. I love this sweet post. I think, despite sometimes wishing I could say deployment's not a reality, it's important to remember to cherish the little things, so you will be that much more appreciative when you don't have them (hopefully for a very short while).

    I know I've been horrible about commenting lately, but I'm here (busy) and reading away. :)

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  10. It's definitely great that you guys are together and get to see each other on a daily basis. I too get sad that I can't spend buckets of money at Hobby Lobby! I love that place.

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  11. Love this post!! So true, so real. You are blessed beyond measure...even if he does snore ;)

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  12. Oh I adore you. You and Soldier Man are so special together!

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  13. I hate days like that. They just creep up on you every now and then. I remember when my husband and I had a long list of chores but all we managed to do was drive around accomplishing nothing due to various reasons.

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