February 28, 2010

Superstition

One of the things I've learned about myself over the years: I have weird superstitions.

Specifically, I tend to believe in jinxes. I have a big problem saying, "X is going to happen," because it seems as though as sure as I do, X falls through.

Example: Last year, I seriously kicked-off my photog as a business. I bought equipment, took some classes (not generic college classes, but actual photowalks taught by actual photographers where I actually learned how to get the maximum use out of my camera and lenses, not the theory of black and white photography for point-and-shoots), made some appointments, and had some sample/practice shoots. Shortly, I had several bookings. I was very excited. So I start to tell people, "Yeah, it's really taking off already I have 'so many' appointments." and that week, all my appointments canceled. Not for the week. All of them. Needless to say, it kind of kicked the wind out of me for a while.

Example 2: Then I got hired doing freelance copywriting for a local company. Also very exciting, primarily because it was actually going to enable me to use my degrees - both my Creative Writing degree and my Journalism (print) degree. So when people asked me, "What do you do?" I felt like I could FINALLY say, "I'm a writer." (Yes, I have 3 working manuscripts on my computer, none a complete first draft. Yes, I work on them. No, I don't feel this qualifies me as a "writer" by profession. Yet.) We worked for several weeks pulling together what I thought was a pretty stellar start-up business. I wasn't just glad to have job, I was really enthusiastic about the company/product itself. A dream job. Then suddenly, one day I get an email saying the project has been scrapped, thanks just the same. Out of the blue. Boo.

This is my track record with most things. It's made me very hesitant to talk about the future at all. Although, I have learned to add the caveat, "God willing" to the end of most of my sentences. And I really mean it. It's not a talisman against misfortune. It reminds me just how much of my plans are and are not within my control. And anyway, isn't that what the Bible says? "Don't say, 'tomorrow I will go here,' because you don't know what tomorrow will bring. Instead say, 'If God wills it.'" (Paraphrase of Matt. 6)

Anyway, what does that have to do with anything?

Well, recently I was having computer issues. You may or may not remember, that's fine. Anyway, I took the stupid laptop apart and put it back together I don't know how many times, ultimately causing more problems than I had to being with, but that's neither here nor there. :)

During the process of getting it fixed, we discover the laptop is just out of warranty. So after I get it put back together (thanks to Sister's Boyfriend) I mention that I really hope nothing happens to it right now, since buying a laptop would really make our budget take a hit.

Enter the Click of Death.

You don't know what the Click of Death is?

It's the death rattle of hard drives.

The laptop has about 1 clicking episode a day right now.

So now I'm really trying to baby this thing. Thankfully, after hearing about Kate's nightmarish computer theft back in January, I signed up for Carbonite. So now all my essential files - documents, pictures, and music - are backed up at a remote, secure location. So I'd only be losing any installed software - like my PHOTO EDITING SOFTWARE whose disc I can't find - should anything happen to this hard drive. And thankfully, hard drives cost much less than laptops. We're talking $75 tops. And I "know a guy" (Sister's Boyfriend) who could put it in for me, if need be.

I just really, really hope need doesn't be. Cause that would stink. Big time.

And that's all I have to say about that.

And since I want to have a picture, here's my favorite perfume.
I really don't wear anything else, haven't in years. It smells amazing and I can sits next to women with chronic triggered migraines and they won't even notice, except to say, "Oh, you smell nice!" No really. It's that awesome.

3 comments:

  1. I wasn't even going to comment on this post (I agree with all of the above, but I didn't have anything "profound" to add) until I got to the bottom. I love how random the perfume bit is. That really made me laugh!

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  2. Fingers crossed that the computer sticks it out and everything works out on that front. I'm big on jinxes too, and know that EVERYTHING is God willing, that quote about "wanna make God laugh, tell him your plans" is SO true.

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