November 27, 2009

It's only been 3 weeks?

There are times when I don't know if I can do this.

Times I think this was all a big mistake.

Times I'm looking at the calendar and not believing so little time has ticked away.

Times I don't know how I'll be able to handle any more.

Times I feel like I'm not strong enough.

Times I feel like it's going to kill me.

This is one of those times.

I know, it will pass.

Time always does.

So I'm just trying to wait it out.

8 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you are having one of those days. If we weren't 9000 miles apart I'd invite you round for drinks and thanksgiving leftovers. It might not make the time go faster, but it would still be fun.

    Meanwhile, I am pretty sure the last month has had more than 4 weeks in it. Way more. It feels like at least 9. I keep looking at the calendar wondering if I can cross off another month of this deployment, but keep getting disappointed.

    Sigh.

    We'll both get there, but you're right, it does suck.

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  2. I'm so sorry love! My heart is breaking for you right now as I remember all too well how this feels. Keep imagining that awesome reunion you are going to have for Christmas in DAYS!!! And seriously, in the meantime, let's get together soon. I can come up anytime during the week *therapuetic bottle of wine in tow* and help you pack if you want or just to vent.. whatever!

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  3. You'll hit your stride soon! I promise!

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  4. I hate those times... it seems like they have already been gone forever. But thankfully it does get better...

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  5. *hugs* to you...
    The first few weeks are so hard. I feel your pain.

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  6. Time goes by so slow when you want it to just fly by. The beginning weeks and the ending weeks go by at a glacial pace.

    I LOVE Jenny the Military Spouse! Her comics really do speak to the pressures and stress we are under!

    Hang in there. He is coming home for Christmas right?? You will see him soon! Keep busy!

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  7. I've never seen those comics before-- thanks for sharing!

    I'm sorry you're feeling this way, but the wait will be worth it when he gets done with training and you two can get settled down again, I promise :)

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  8. I am sorry you are having a rough time. It will get better plus you have a great online community now and probably know people who are going through the same right now. :)

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